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6th-Jan-2010 07:02 pm
introspection
One of the major reasons that my blog has been so quiet recently, isn't just that I don't have the concentration to blog, though concentration's been at a premium for me, and it isn't just that I've fallen out of the habit, though I have. It's also that I'm aware that my blogging pre-hiatus was of a certain quality, and as the hiatus stretched, I started holding myself to a higher and higher standard, and told myself not to blog unless I had something EXCELLENT to say about something REALLY IMPORTANT.

Well, bollocks to that. I'm going to try and update more regularly

Today over IM, one of my very best friends in all the world said this:
Not just 'cause you appear effortlessly serene and perfect on LJ when you capital-B-Blog, but because I know how hard you work behind the scenes to be it. That's why you're one of my heroes.
Which touched me beyond measure, so I'm saving it. Today I also took a Long Personality Test on OKCupid (note I don't use the word 'scientific', because I don't much want to legitimise what I think is only a piece of introspective fun), and I got ENFP - The Champion. This gave me a kind of warm feeling because most of what was described in that test (and the mirror on Kiersey.com) was a lot like the person I'd like to be - I was 100% extrovert, which I've learned in myself is an indicator of low depression levels, and near 50% on feeling versus thinking - these days I value them both equally so I like to maintain a balance. So that's reminded me, as well, that I'm doing quite well towards being the person I want to be.

Now, I just have to regain the meditation habit, as 10 minute sitting every morning has in the past worked well in helping me with my biggest problem - the issue I frequently have in getting my mind and body to be in the same place at the same time, something I'm still convinced is vital for functioning like a normal human, of the kind that works, eats, and operates in a normal social way.

And master Right Speech. I still have some work to do on that.




THIS.
... Facebook sucks. It's like 2001 all over again. Don't get me wrong, 2001 was great... IN 2001. Do you remember 2001 - when almost everyone updated several times a day and entries were generally shorter? Some people updated like they were Twittering when there wasn't even any such thing as Twitter. But do you know why people on lj stopped don that for the most part? Because it's BORING. Because it lacks meaningful interaction. Because it was too much chatter. It was great for a while - when we couldn't stand to be away from each other for longer than a couple hours. But our relationship matured beyond that constant need for reassurance and feedback and then those constant, short updates became an annoyance.
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6th-Jan-2010 07:12 pm (UTC)
...I can't help but interpret that last snip about Facebook as "baww people are not updating their journals the way *I* want them to" cloaked behind pretensions of maturity.
6th-Jan-2010 07:19 pm (UTC)
I quoted a particularly snippy bit, but the whole post is more about "hey, we've all started using Facebook and I miss LJ. Here is how I propose to start using LJ more."
6th-Jan-2010 07:47 pm (UTC)
I think they'd do a better job of that if they didn't start out with insulting facebook. In a fifth grade manner, yes, but still insulting. It puts those of us who like facebook on guard about what's going to be next.
6th-Jan-2010 08:12 pm (UTC)
I'm going to try and update more regularly

Hooray! And you are quite right about not holding yourself up to unrealistic standards over it. I think that for most of us, our best posts rise up out of the mix when we are already in the habit of posting something on a relatively regular basis - warming ourselves up for the big ones, as it were. So do please feel free to get yourself nice and toasty-snug with some smaller, simpler posts - and we'll await the substantial epics with pleasure.

Interestingly, you are actually one of a good six or seven people on my flist recently whom I've seen emerging out of hibernation, stretching, flexing their typing fingers and getting back into the habit of posting. So I guess quite a few people have maybe done a quick stock-take over the festive period, and resolved to get back into the habit of posting more regularly.

As yet, you're the first person I've seen who has linked their reappearance (even obliquely) with getting sick of Facebook, but I know I've started thinking along those lines myself recently too. Why should I write a short, insubstantial status update on Facebook, which my boss will be able to see, and which I can't really have a proper conversation about in the comments, when I could turn the same idea into a more meaningful post here on LJ and get some proper interaction out of it? Facebook certainly has its merits, but I don't want to let it take the place of posting on LJ.
6th-Jan-2010 09:29 pm (UTC)
This updates to Facebook's notes anyway, and I'm getting more and more comments there. It serves a purpose (link sharing for a major one), but I like it here.
6th-Jan-2010 09:26 pm (UTC)
We'll make an American out of you yet.
6th-Jan-2010 09:55 pm (UTC)
Say what now?
7th-Jan-2010 02:13 pm (UTC)
Because of (a) the American tendency to speak your mind without any though of who's overhearing and possibly disapproving, and (b) the American tendency to appropriate fairly common human behaviors as typically or even uniquely ours.
7th-Jan-2010 02:14 pm (UTC)
-any thought-
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