Happy Birthday Ro
I think a lot - most - of what's going on with me is stress. From an increased fall back into 'being' states that include RPing and writing, from the headaches, to the fact that I had two panic attacks yesterday, and Bing managed to talk me down from another one before I went to bed.
Stress is of course PhD related. And money related. I need to check some things but I'm not sure I'm going to have funding next year, which means having to get a job, which means no longer working full time on my PhD which means oh god am I going to finish?
. As I said, Bing talked me down, and pointed out that yes, if I want to finish I will finish and it's all OK, and the money's going to come from somewhere.
Case in point: I have savings. And the InnerRents are never averse to lending me money, so yes. I think I should stop with the CAT, though. Luckily I only have four sessions left. And possibly also the gym: I don't go enough.
*deep breath* Guess I'm not getting a permanent account next week. Guess also my journals will all stop being paid. Don't worry, I'd never let this one go sponsored.
And if I lent any of you money? I might ask for it back.
And I've paid for D*C registration but not flights. I don't know what to do about that.Anyway
, so today I'm doing better - I done work, in fact, which is nice. And I'm confident I'll sort something out, I hope.
But I am still getting headaches, albeit not as bad as the ones pre-period. And I'm drinking more than I usually do. And peeing regularly.
this is a distraction activity, linked again to my possible
ADD. Which I really have to talk to the therapist about, even if she's CAT, which is about behaviour. OR it's possible SB is right and I might have something more long term.
But right now I'm assuming it's stress.
So how are you