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3rd-Jan-2008 09:35 am

I would really really appreciate it if meter readers and parcel delivery folks would knock or ring the doorbell before sticking that "while you were out" note through the letterbox. Because I always pick up the note just too late to open the door to chase down the lazy sod.

Yesterday I made the whole day without crying once. \o/ I was guilty this morning of staying in bed until the flatmate had left so I'd have less reason to today, mind. Hmmmm. In physical health news - I'm not feverish or homunculising or anything other than leaking steadily out of my nose and sneezing semi-regularly, which is also a good sign.

Lots of people have made New Year's resolutions - I don't make them as a whole because I think self-improvement should be a year round thing, but I have noticed a worrying tendency recently in that I appear to have stopped reading. Not on the tube, not in bed, nothing. I have books on the go, but I'm not picking them up.

I'm like you (probably) - I was brought up around books. Stories are my life. I always have books. I love books. So me not reading - it's new and weird and I don't like it. I have lots of books I've started and not finished. I have lots of books on my to-read pile, I have even more books that I intend to hunt down and read, and yet, I'm not.

I'm hoping it's a general state-of-the-brat thing. A symptom of stress and depression that's made my brain shake down a little. Because now when people talk about books around me, I start getting anxious. Now I know I should read (damn, I like the two books I'm reading now: Robinson Crusoe and Captain Johnson) but the very thought of reading is becoming a chore in my mind  - something I have to do and [ohgod] therefore something I don't want to do.

Vicious circle. Resolving to do it makes me freak out. Talking about books I should read now makes me anxious

I hate this. Hate it.

3rd-Jan-2008 10:22 am (UTC)
Aw shit. ;o(

Have you tried re-reading something that you read and really enjoyed as a small child? Something that just couldn't be considered a chore to read. It might kick your brain out of this vicious circle.

Reason I say this is that you may like the books you're reading right now but if you don't get on so well with the writing style, or even if you're feeling as though you just should like everything about them, then a chore it will always be to your brain. ;o(

Whatever the problem is I hope you can ditch it soon. *hugs*
3rd-Jan-2008 10:29 am (UTC)
I should probably add that this doesn't/didn't apply to new Harry Potter, Discworld or any comics/graphic novels, because I do get lost in those. But then I read those rather than doing other stuff, as opposed to being able to lose myself in in at half hours at a time, if that makes sense.

I mean, I'm pretty sure that if I picked up my Winnie Poohs, or finally found my Arthur Ransoms at the InnerRents, I'd read them. But I really want to read Jim's pirate book. I was liking that!

*clings to you*
3rd-Jan-2008 10:40 am (UTC)
Hee, actually my first thought was "it's a shame Terry Pratchett isn't bringing a new book out about now as I bet that would get read with glee".

Maybe try reading your Winnie "ther" Poohs? Then hopefully you'll find it easier to return to the pirate book.

(OT, by the lord harry I'm going to get me a hugs icon, yes sirrah!)
3rd-Jan-2008 10:45 am (UTC)
Give the guy a break. He's just had one out, and he's got the brain sickness. He doesn't need to write just to fix my readers block (though conveniently I don't seem to have writer's block all the way)

I might well try the Poohs. I think I will try the pirates this evening when I'm finished with work, and if I'm not into that, I think it's about time I broke in the special edition books I've had for so long.

- oh, go on then.
3rd-Jan-2008 10:50 am (UTC)
Having said that he's probably got one on the way soon as he normally works on several at once, in varying stages of completion.

I hope it works. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

Ok ok, so you've got a hugs icon. Show off. ;op
3rd-Jan-2008 10:52 am (UTC)
Fingers crossed for a Tiffany Aching book in the springtime?

- I know my Pterry calendar a little too well, don't I?
3rd-Jan-2008 12:18 pm (UTC)
*super snuggly e-hugs*

*plus bonus summertime weather from Brisbane FOR YOU*

3rd-Jan-2008 12:19 pm (UTC)

3rd-Jan-2008 12:22 pm (UTC)
BEST ICON ...for porn EVER.

3rd-Jan-2008 12:35 pm (UTC)
He resented it when he was in my brain, so he can resent it in your brain too. That bastard.

*sends you lots of Lemsip and honey*
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3rd-Jan-2008 12:32 pm (UTC)
I would really really appreciate it if meter readers and parcel delivery folks would knock or ring the doorbell before sticking that "while you were out" note through the letterbox.

Yeah, that really pisses me off too! I'm sure it's a nuisance to carry parcels around and be unavble to deliver them when people aren't in, but it's their job!

Sorry to hear about the reading, that must be really grim. I hope you overcome it soon and get pleasure out of reading again.
3rd-Jan-2008 12:49 pm (UTC)

I've actually had that happen to me - the book thing. I forget how I dealt with it exactly *blush* but I believe the main issue was just to pick up a really good book and chisel my way through a few paragraphs; once I'd done that, I'd forget all about the sense of obligation because reading is fun, dammit. :D Might not work for you, but it's something to try?

And re: the crying bit: *snuggles again* Congrats, in a sort of gosh-I-wish-you-didn't-need-congratulating-for-that way. ♥
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