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One of those days. 
16th-Apr-2008 04:00 pm
I am unbelievably restless and distractable today. I've got work that I'm doing, but I keep actively looking for other things. And - it doesn't feel like procrastination. It's not I don't wanna work so I'll do something else (it never is, never has... OK, I get those days like everyone does, but that's not the problem). It's I want to work, I have to work. I really want to work so WHY DO I KEEP GETTING UP TO PEE?

It's horrible. And distressing because it's really really not my fault here. At least I don't think it is. But then - how can it not be? Why can't I just do it?

And then I mentally work myself into a frenzy of self-loathing and anxiety and frustration, with my leg twitching because it wants to go for a walk and my bladder's empty from all the peeing, thank you.

It's just - this is what it's like to be me, some days.
16th-Apr-2008 02:58 pm (UTC)
boy, do i ever know that feeling! I don't know if it helps, but I get the impression that this is something just about every dissertating student goes through.
16th-Apr-2008 03:01 pm (UTC)
That sounds deeply crap. :(

I hope it goes away soon!
16th-Apr-2008 03:03 pm (UTC)
LOL going away.

It's not exactly a temporary situation.
16th-Apr-2008 03:55 pm (UTC)
Well if it's not going to go away, just try to avoid the self-loathing, anxiety and frustration aspects.

As you say, it's not your fault.
17th-Apr-2008 07:38 am (UTC)
*cuddles you a lot*

*from desk at work*

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