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Taking a moment to love that moment. 
5th-Jun-2008 12:57 pm
please?

I have, as I've mentioned before, been trying to find sometime in my day to listen to a backlog of zencast- at my most content and happy I manage one of the weekly broadcasts a day, but recently it's fallen back, and surprise surprise I am losing a lot of my life to anxiety and random crying.

But learning to meditate has been a hell of a lot of help when I manage to do it, and I'm determined to try and find the time more and more because falling into the present moment and losing existential anxiety is important for my mental well-being right now. And it's helped. It's helped a lot.

Zencast's particular Introduction to Meditation was great for me: guided meditations and lessons built up over 5 sessions to help me learn what to do, and I can't recommend those recordings enough.

But the main reason I'm taking a minute out of my current podcast listening to post is this; in the talk titled Being Present, Gil Frondsal talks about a way to approach a situation with 'what's right with this situation'? It's a viewpoint I should use more often; I'm so wrapped up in my inability to focus, in my transatlantic relationship woes, in my anxiety over my degree grinding to a halt, in the stress of flatmates moving out &c &c, that I'm not really focusing on what's right about my current situation.

I am actively involved in the process of teaching science to the public.
My family are all healthy, and all love each other.
My girlfriend never fails to make me smile.

There are a billion other things I could add, but there's three.And the bigger ones are 'will be's and that's not the point of the exercise. Besides I really want my friends to make be happy through osmosis

If you read this, I want you to comment or to post in your own space something about your current situation that's right. It might make you happy, it might just not make you sad, but it should be a thing you don't want to change if you can help it. No "soon I will" or "I have done". Present tense only.

Opinions 
5th-Jun-2008 11:52 am (UTC)
I have two wonderful housemates whom I adore.

I have a job I like and get to work with amazing people.
5th-Jun-2008 12:25 pm (UTC)
I adore your housemates, too!
5th-Jun-2008 01:01 pm (UTC)
They are adore-able ;)
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5th-Jun-2008 12:31 pm (UTC)
If that's a picture of your daughter, she is gorgeous!
5th-Jun-2008 11:59 am (UTC)
I get to ride my scooter to work every day, thus doing something I enjoy as I commute.
5th-Jun-2008 12:32 pm (UTC)
Now you just have to drive a Husky-pulled scooter to work.
5th-Jun-2008 12:00 pm (UTC)
I have a good job I love.

I'm moving in with one of my best friends within the next two weeks.

Tomorrow I'm flying to California to go to a dear friend's wedding.
5th-Jun-2008 12:33 pm (UTC)
It's so nice to read about you loving your job \o/

ALSO. When are you back from California?
5th-Jun-2008 12:43 pm (UTC)
I'll be around and hopefully unjetlagged on Tuesday.
5th-Jun-2008 12:44 pm (UTC)
Awesome! Have a great trip!
5th-Jun-2008 12:46 pm (UTC)
Also: hipy papy bthuthuththdy
5th-Jun-2008 12:52 pm (UTC)
:D
5th-Jun-2008 12:17 pm (UTC)
I am able to pay my bills.
5th-Jun-2008 12:34 pm (UTC)
An ability so few people seem to have these days. \o/
5th-Jun-2008 12:25 pm (UTC)
My life is full and stimulating and often a lot of fun.

There are a lot of people upon whom I can fall back if I ever need support of any kind at all.
5th-Jun-2008 01:16 pm (UTC)
I have Batya. All the rest is commentary.

OK, I also have whole hordes of wonderful friends, loving family, a job that suits me, three or four TV shows and a handful of comic books that delight me, and a few days off. But Batya tops them all.

Yes, I am a sap in love.
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5th-Jun-2008 08:21 pm (UTC)
Aw! But you have plenty of other things to be happy about, you idiot, it's not just me. :) Like for instance:

You and I are more financially stable than we have been in the entire time we've been "you and I."

My parents are unspeakably excited about being in Manchester in a week, and your parents are being lovely about planning all kinds of practical ways to show them (and me!) a good time while they're here.
5th-Jun-2008 01:53 pm (UTC)
Only one thing.

My Friends!
5th-Jun-2008 02:41 pm (UTC)
I totally stayed up all night RPing. And have now only just got up and dressed. \o/
5th-Jun-2008 03:30 pm (UTC)
I have Jean and game I am head over heels for my new game.
I love my house and that my house keeps me happy, endlessly.
I am in love with a boy who doesn't cease to amaze me.
I love my summer class, and the research I'm doing for my comprehensives.
I am enthralled in my Goddess studies.
I love, love, love the juice I'm drinking right now.
5th-Jun-2008 04:01 pm (UTC)
Best meme EVER.
5th-Jun-2008 04:19 pm (UTC)
I am volunteering in probably the best museum in the world.
I am not working in retail.
5th-Jun-2008 04:24 pm (UTC)
My family is INSANE and I love them very dearly; my friends ditto; and I am managing to actually wake myself up at reasonable hours even when it is not strictly necessary, which gives me hope for adjustment to grown-up-person life!
5th-Jun-2008 04:41 pm (UTC)
I am not depressed. :)
5th-Jun-2008 04:55 pm (UTC)
I am writing and people are reading it. My girlfriend still wants to go to Berlin with me to the extent that she's taken over the organisation. I have a home. I am employed. It's sunny. No one is anally raping me with an angry hedgehog.
5th-Jun-2008 10:49 pm (UTC)
I am really loving and enjoying my work these days-I was offered a permanent contract today.

I have a wonderful loving and supportive family back in Ireland-I am flying over there Saturday and am at the present moment excited and looking forward to seeing them all.

I love living in Cheltenham-I have only really realised this over the past week-great pals, great countryside, great location and have started toying with the idea of looking to buy a place of my own here(despite the mad economic situation, a home is a home).

I'm not currently depressed-I have been off anti-depressants almost a year.
At the present moment I feel energetic, have no muscle aches, swollen glands, nausea or tummy pains.

I am loving my Shiatsu course and love healing others through both my work and my course. Realising that through healing others, you gradually begin to heal yourself too.
6th-Jun-2008 08:24 am (UTC)
I can paint.
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